Sprung

Well, I am sorry to say that my priorities have gone slightly askew.  Some might thing it is spring fever.  Not exactly.  Just a lot of change and growth.

I have to be honest and tell you, I am so excited about that.  SO much so I am finding working is a joy again.  Switching gears from writing childrens back to my love of fiction has made me so happy!

No, that doesn’t mean I will be altering that promise.  It just means I won’t be hard nosed about when I get them done.  That will reflect in a much better produced story.  THAT makes me extremely happy.

My gkids deserve the best, and pushing through sure wasn’t getting either of us there.

No new illustrations or photos to share, yet.  However,  last week we spent a day working on the business blog and adding the other part of Kolb Web Inc into the WordPress family.  (Won’t mention that other formate he started blogging.)

There is nothing like being in cahoots with your best friend.  We had been talking about this, and planning as well.  It all seemed like a far-fetched dream.  Now here we are taking baby steps.

Speaking of baby steps.  Some might find that the lack of sales and ‘success’ in Snowball a downer.  Not so.  I knew it would be miserly with sales.  It was my first (and like I say worst).  We all start somewhere; Snowball is my starting point (writing and illustrating).

I have to keep writing and drawing. Then you know what comes next? More writing and illustrating.  When I get enough of that done, I suppose there will be even more writing and illustrating to come.  See the redundancy in this.  THAT is where and when I will find the success most people define it as.

Me, I define success as this moment right . . . now.  And every moment here after.  I did the hardest thing I ever thought I would do.  I finished a story, and published it. Pow! I knocked it very slowly and painfully out of the ball park.  Home RUN!

Dream big! Then do something about that dream.

Happy Weekend to you,

Julie

 

 

BUSTED!

It is official.  I won’t be making my self projected April 18th pub date for Bad Dream.  Nope, not going to happen.

Mixed feelings.  Many.

  • Disgust
  • Disappointment
  • Doubt

Those are the headliners.  I’ll call them the Triple D’s of not just writing, but publishing as well.

I would blame my work ethic, but the hubs would give me that one eyebrow’d sigh.  I pushed myself so hard, and was so resistant to my own shoving that I stagnated.

One might thing that was a horrible thing.  A week ago, I would have agreed. Today, not so much.

You see, I haven’ t had the clear vision of this project.  Not until recently, and even the idea is sketchy. Something I need to be doing is sketching.  But sketching what?  Sure the story, but the visuals have a lot of  wiggle room.  The setting is determined by those sketches, not by the story.  A whole new dimension of story development that I am new to in so very many ways.

I didn’t even know I could draw a stick figure six months ago.  What I have done already, still leaves me much room for creativity and evolving of the story.  Still learning.

Here is where that eyebrow raising spousal unit comes in, he has told me (on more than one occasion) to not push so hard.  He says my best ideas and concepts come when I am meandering.  I heard, but ignored.

So now here I am less than a month away and barely three pages are complete.  No idea for the other thirty-one pages.   So, I am calling it.

Not a scrub of the project. Just that it is in the works, and will keep working on it and let it evolve.  NO deadline.  (That is how I work best.)

I will keep you updated on the progress, and even share some of what I am working on.

If you have any truly beloved children’s books – picture, chapter, or y.a. – please share.  I love hearing what is popular and well loved.  Have a great weekend.

Draw, write, and read!

Julie

Spring Hasn’t Sprung, Yet

As of this post, there is still inches of snow in my yard and a forecast for flurries and freezing temperatures.  Thoughts of going out in the yard and screaming to the sky, “Snow, snow, go away come again, next winter!”

This year has been as unpredictable work wise as it has weather.  Work on the illustrations of my first picture book is nonexistent to the eye.  Only two pages are complete.  Difficult decisions on chopping up the story into illustrations haven’t all been made.  Doubt and questioning myself has stopped my hand from touching paint to paper more times than I care to admit.

Every week, I find myself saying, next week. Then next week.  I am tired of winter and ready for that change in routine that warmer temperatures brings.  Ready to finish this picture book, and ready for winter to go away.

Truth.  I had set my deadline, and then tried to push myself to complete the book.

Truth.  I do not work well on a deadline,whether set by others or myself.  I am and have always been someone who does their best work meandering.

Truth.  I have never accepted that about myself.  It is time.

Hi, my name is Julie and I am a meandering genius.  I have gotten in my own way because I do not account for this aspect of my personality.  I plan and schedule according to a fictitious ‘norm’  of super woman imagery which leads to rebellious procrastination and a forced drive that makes me do less than my best to ‘git er done’.

The picture book will be out in July or October.  That is reasonable, allowing for the time and creativity that will make both myself and my grandchild happy.  So there it is.

Push or Piddle?

If piddling is good enough for winter and spring, then it is good enough for me.  Things come in the right time.  Weather, seasons, and creativity aren’t exactly the same, but I think the analogy is sound.  They are all about growth.

Plants need the various stages that the seasons bring in order to grow and multiply. So does creativity.  In the winter of my work, looking forward to spring and sprouting of ideas.

What are you planting?